I’m still struggling.
But you’re the hand guiding me through the darkness.
Sometimes you just have to let go and tell people how much joy they bring to your life.
You don’t have a clue about self destruction
I still want you
I still love you
And nothing is going to change that. I’m so miserable without you and nothing can fix me.
I just want you to know that no matter what happens this was more than just some stupid relationship people have in passing. For me this is where I felt what real love was for the first time in my entire life and all I can feel now is my heart being torn apart into a thousand tiny shreds. I’ve never felt this kind of pain before and if by some miracle I stop feeling like this I never want to be close to feeling it again. I never want to feel love or be loved because the pain of having it ripped away it the most horrible thing I’ve ever experienced. I really hope you find someone who is suited to you tho. I wish you best and I want you to be happy. I’m so sorry I wasn’t the right one for you. I wanted to be.